I came home defeated yesterday. Having two reviews for my Pilates exam, which is coming up next week and very stressful. The reviews were on anatomy and postural analysis, the hardest parts of the test in my opinion. My brain was fried and my eyes were tired as I got home late afternoon on Saturday. I sat on the couch and when Lance walked in the door I let it all out, tears and frustration. There is SO much I need to do and there's a big time limit on it, that's a little unknown with this baby coming some time within these next three weeks. I doubted my ability to take or pass this exam and definitely doubted myself as a prepared mother to be.
As I said my prayers that night, I was grateful to be able to ask for God's help in all that I'm involved in right now. How comforting is it that God can not only help me with spiritual things, but physical, educational, and emotional things as well? I find prayer one of the most comforting tools we have in this life. After praying I promised to God and myself that as I got up this Sunday morning I would not let myself go straight back to studying Pilates, which I wanted to so bad, but that I would take time to be spiritually fed. I've been slacking in this area lately and it hasn't gone unnoticed. I can already feel a difference in this day and its only 9:30 am. I listened to a talk by Margorie Hinckley, and realized a few things:
Decide today what you will and will not do. I've needed to get rid of the unnecessary tasks I tend to spend too much time on. I always feel better about a day where the time is spent wisely-time spent on the most important.
Capitalize on the strength of those around you. I love this! I've always known that I've been blessed to be surrounded by great people, and having the knowledge of the greatest- our Heavenly Father, how wonderful is it that I can capitalize on His
strengths and all those he's surrounded me by. I'm extremely thankful for that.
God can strengthen my own abilities as well. After a fried brain on Saturday, I thought I'd never memorize the order of taking someone through a postural analysis and remembering all the correct anatomical words to address it all. Before going to bed, I wrote out a script, which took the very last of my endurance that night, and as a laid down to sleep, I decided to go through the order in my head, just for kicks, knowing I'd probably struggle through it and be frustrated I couldn't remember it all. To my magnificent surprise, I went through the entire thing with out hesitation and even at a speed that seemed quick enough to make me think I knew what I was talking about! There was definitely some help involved. My own personal miracle.
So my gratitude is with the all knowing God, the one I can call on for help and capitalize, not just on my own strengths, but His and those He has placed in my life.