I'm a MOM now. I feel weird even saying it. Doesn't seem real. But oh, am I glad it is real. I'm enjoying every ounce of this baby boy.
He came sooner than I thought he would. I had my pregnancy all planned out, or so I thought. I was told by Gray's pediatrician, whom I met before Grayson was born, that pregnancy, in a way, prepares you for motherhood-You can only plan so much, cause at times, it will take a route unexpected and you just have to follow and that's exactly what happened.
My goal was to get my Pilates certification before the baby came. I had my practical and written test scheduled to be taken and done with two weeks before the baby's due date. The two weeks after were going to be dedicated to the baby. Learning and preparing all I could for him. But, I took my practical on Thursday, Friday went in to have little baby turned around cause he was breach. The dr. Office was a series of events, and the final event was the conclusion that we couldn't turn the baby and scheduled a C-section for the very next morning. I was FREAKED out!! This was not part of my plan and I wasn't prepared to be a mom yet. Tears were shed and fear set in greatly. But, with some comforting calls from friends and family and a priesthood blessing from my wonderful husband, I began to let go of worry and grab on to extreme excitement.
It began to feel like Christmas for lance and I, but it exceeded any kind of Christmas I've ever had. The experience of having a little boy together was extraordinary. I'm ashamed to admit that sometimes I looked at motherhood as ordinary - everyone does it, specially if you live in Utah. BUT, it is by FAR the most extraordinary thing I have ever been involved in. And to share it with the person I love the most made it out of this world. I'm honored to be among those women called mom. It's my favorite title and most sacred responsibility. I'm grateful for every day I am able to experience it. It's the best gift this life has to offer.